@}-----Saturday, March 01, 2008
Dear Diary,
Today, as I looked back. I realised I gave my best, tried my best, worked my best, hoped my best, prayed my best, squeezed all that I am and ever had. I have no regrets in giving up. Please don't get me wrong. Giving up may seemed a bad thing to most people. But..this giving up is good. Because I’ve been trying and trying so hard for
the past few years. And
finally I can, am ready and willing to say,“I give up.”
“What if I regret..?” you might ask. Honestly, I doubt I will. No..not even a bit. Because for these years, I haven’t been giving up..till this day, it has been painful, hurting, unbearable, sometimes overwhelming. Yes it is..and so..giving up is a good thing. Though I may not see it now, but I know the Lord will not shortchange me. His blessings will continue to pour forth unto my life, even ten thousand more folds.
Yes. I know my Lord well enough. He will not shortchange me. Amen.Jesus, I thank you for this beautiful day. Where I know, “Yes, I am ready. Yes, I can. Yes, I will give up.” I thank you for revealing things to me, for me to see, for me to know, for me to acknowledge. Father, thank you for
always always be by my side..to comfort me to sleep when the night just seemed too long for me; to hug me in Your loving arms whenever my tears refuse to stop; to breath breathe of life into this tired soul; to spring forth living water into my dry bones.
Lord, all for love You gave Your son to die for all of our sins - those from the past, those at the present and those in the future. The world says there is no way. But Lord, You made a way. You made a way for all of us to enter Your Heavenly Gates into Your Awesome Kingdom.Lord, though it hurts You to see Your son go through all the sufferings - the leashing and the shame,
still, Jesus was crucified.
Oh how many times have I sinned against You; how many times I’ve disobeyed you; how many times I’ve walked my own ways and not following Yours; how many times I’ve taken things into my own hands and not seeking Your face or Your Godly counsels who are so readily here to help me; how many times have Your heard me pray, come and touch me, come and fill me, come draw near to me as I draw near to You; how many times have I broken Your heart..still You forgive me time and time again when I kneel down and seek for Your forgiveness. How many times..just how many times..
Everything I need is You, You’re the one who formed my heart long before my birth, my beginning. You’re the one whom I will spend my eternity praising and worshipping, my forever. You’re my everything..
Let me sing all because of Your love, Your everlasting love. I will join the angels singing and dancing for Your name is above every names. You are ever holy, ever pure. No one can be compared to You. All honour and blessing and power belongs to You. Glory be unto You.
King of kings, King of all, King of me..All for love, Christ prayed, “Abba Father, God have Your way. Though they don’t know what they do. Let the Cross draw man to You..” Amen.
"All For Love" by Hillsong United LiveAll for love the Father gaveFor only love could make a wayAll for love the heavens cried
For love was crucifiedOh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to meChorus:
Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is YouLet me sing all for loveI will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of allBridge:
All for love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You
"You Are The One" by Lincoln Brewster
You’re the One who made the Heavens
You’re the One who shaped the Earth
You’re the One who formed my heart
Long before my birthI believe You’ll always lead meAll my days have been ordained
All Your thoughts toward me are holy
Full of love and graceChorus:
You are the One You are holyYou are the One You are worthyYou are the One
You are the One everlastingYou are the One I will worshipYou are the One I will serve all my days
You are the One
You are the One everlasting
Lord You are the One
Jesus You’re the One
(The one who brought me out of darkness
Into Your marvellous lightHealed my broken heartGave me new lifeLord I give myself to Your O God
Lord there's none like YouNo, there's none like You
You are the One
You are the One Lord,
You are the One
You are the One)
"Jesus Shall Take The Highest Honour" by Chris Bowater
Jesus shall take the highest honour
Jesus shall take the highest praise
Let all earth join heaven in exalting
The Name which is above all other names
Let's bow the knee in humble adorationFor at His name every knee must bowLet every tongue confess He is Christ, God's only SonSovereign Lord, we give You glory now
Chorus:
For all honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to YouAll honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to You
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God
*ying
-10:43 PM
Me
Name: Adora Zeng Guying
Other Desired Name: Oceana
Given English Name: Chanel (all thanks to Jonathan... btw do I really look like one??? hmphz... :/)
Given Korean Name: Park Goo Ying (all thanks to Uncle Desmond... :x)
Given Jap Name: Sakura (this is to poppy..a very strange way of linking my chinese name to tis jap name. bt stil thank poppy nonetheless. hahahas!! :x)
Given Indian Name: Latchitmi (donno how to spell la..ahgah ahgah..all thanks to Jonathan..supposedly to be an indian goddess name..bt he donno so anyhow give w/o me knowin. -_-". . .); Priya (given by Nithya..becoz Jonathan ask her to give after knowing Latchimi is a "no-no" name for me. *rainbow )
Given Malay Name: Adora Binte Zeng Guying (Boon Hoe aka my naughtiest ducklin will know why..)
Nicknames: Mao, Ms Tissue (thanks to Gera aka hamster), Hello Kitty (thanks to Uncle James), Meow Meow Gong Zu (Miu Miu Wang Zi), Katemoshika Zikutoji, Ms Photographer, Ms Pampers (thanks to Daron aka mousie), Dora (for some reason, hamy's friends calls me this..i din intro louder. hahas!), Blossom (thanks to Professor Gene + Mojojojo), The Cat Girl (thanks to Eeson aka "Lao Shi" + "Doctor"), Sugared Chilli Padi, Nuah Nuah Meow, ppY, Toilet Flusher, Crow Activator, Queen of Crows (thanks to Lawrenz aka "stupid law"), Wanton bao Potato (thanks to Bin Han aka "AL"), Rag-Doll (thanks to Clarance aka "Polar Bear"), Drama Queen, Bread Monster, Meow, Xiao Mao, Ying, Ying Ying, Ah-Ying, Xiao Ying, Ying Mah, Ying Ying St. Clair, Monster Ying (thanks to hamy...), D/M (Dirty Monster) + Sick Monster + Evil Monster (thanks to naughty cow...), Pinky, Siyaka, Ah-Moon, Ang Mor Lian, GuGu, Ms Shinkai
Baby Desired Names: Princeton & Tiara!! >.<
Birthday: 11th January 1983
Water Baptism Birthday: 10th April 2005
Comfort Zone @: Bedok
Profession: God's servant
Studio @: 111 Somerset Road
Rock @:TBC
My Wishes
1. to be in heaven with God...asap...
2. to have a cosy home of my own...
3. to see, touch and taste snow!! :P... :x
4. to own a meowie & woofie of my own...best is kitty & puppy! >.<
5. to visit Georgia, Mami and Emm at Romania! :D
6. to visit Lele and Matt at Aussie - Sydney! :D
My Favourites
Loves : God, Jesus, Holy Spirit, God's creations, My Family (Pa, Ma, Xiang, Yan and Juan), My Baby (my baby hamster who are in heaven...erh...not biblical though. :x), Lovely (my long lost kitten..somewhere out there..), Calvin aka papa calvin, Joyce aka mama joyce, Jonathan, Jane, James, Dawn, Jeff, Kin Weng, Vivien, James Cheo, June, Clara aka lala, Keith aka shifu, Jiale aka lele, V-Teamers (Michele, Ru Chen, Yin Hong aka hong hong, Bin Han aka Mr Loh Bin Han, Guo Hwei aka warmer, Shu Kai aka kai ker, Lay Teng aka teng teng, Daren, Pearlin aka swanie, Yingzhi aka batz batz maru, Hwee Teng aka ht, So San aka Xiao Ding Dang, Diana aka mami Diana, Joanna aka mami Joanne, Yan Mei aka YM, Bee Ling aka bl, Gera aka..gera?), Rebecca aka bearie, Sarah, Vernis aka Pooh, Serena, Adeline aka hamy, Karen aka xbt, Tracy aka koala, Jessica aka busy bee, Jeannie, Eileen
Love to learn : God's Words, Jesus, Photography, Baking, Drums, Electric & Accoustic Guitar, All kinds of makeup, Skincare, Bodycare, Ballroom Dancing
Learning : Cooking - Western / Korean Food 1st! :D...
Accomplished : Korean Bulgogi, Beef Seaweed Soup, Korean Egg Rolls, Liang Cha, Swedish Anchovy Bread Rolls, Strawberry Sherberts, Jellies, Chicken Drums with Rosti, Olive Rice, Yum Mu Yor, Apple Galette, Lychee Chicken, Tiramisu, Korean Seafood Pancake, Ban Mian, Korean Ddeokbokki, Curry Chicken Spaghetti, Spaghetti (Scallopini Sauce, Tomato Base Sauce), Carbonara, Swedish Meatballs, Toast, Soto Ayam, Lasagna, Black Pepper Steak, Tortellini, Laksa, Mee Siam, Pizza
Upcoming Projects : Mee Rebus, Nasi Goreng
Special Food : Strawberries, Hershey's Cookie & Creams Milk Chocolate, Topshell, Cornflakes with Milk, Beef Jerky, Milk, Ice-cream, Cheese, Coke or Pepsi Twist with Salt, Pizzas, Canadian Pizza Chicken Wings, Mac Vanilla Cone, Mac Flurry, Gong Gong, Cockles, Kimchi, Kimchi Ramen, Sashimi, Waraku's Kishimen, Mushroom Pot, Long John's Silver, Burger King's Mushroom Burger, Popeye's Biscuit, KFC's Chicken
Korean Dramas : Full House, Goong, Goong S, Get Karl! Oh Soo Jung, Boys Before Flowers
Japanese Dramas : Beautiful Life, Long Vacation, Love Generation, Good Luck!!, Engine, Terms of a Witch
Taiwan Dramas : It Started With A Kiss, It Started With A Kiss 2, MVP Qing Ren, Meteor Garden
Cartoons : Little Mermaid, The Incredibles, Ratatouille, WALL-E, Up, Toy Story, Monster Inc, Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, Lady and the Tramp, Beauty and the Beast, The Lion King, Pocahontas, Mulan, Tarzan, Atlantis: The Lost Empire, Bolt
Movies : Peter Pan, Freaky Friday, Return to Oz, The Princess Diaries, Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen, The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, Enchanted, Harry Potter
Studio Ghibli : Howl's Moving Castle, Spirited Away, Kiki's Delivery Service, Princess Mononoke
